Relationships

It's difficult to make friends sometimes, and when we do we may either cling worried about them abandoning us or the relationship is superficial. Too often those who want real relationships get screwed over by the other person and find themselves having to resist the urge to mend the relationship. Recently I've had multiple falling outs with the same friend, and honestly, I feel so used. They blamed me for being honest when they'd ask me about my problems and trying to help them with theirs. I'm so tired of being used by them, as they have for years; I'm disappointed in myself for not stepping away from the toxic relationship. I keep giving and giving and keep getting nothing back. I am shattered from how they treated me, when I have been nothing but kind and did nothing but help them with whatever they needed, it really hurts me.
So I hope, that whoever reads this, please take the time to analyze your relationships, is it superficial or is it genuine? Are you a giver or a taker? Please take the time to ponder over if you are hurting yourself or others by being in certain relationships.

Til next time,
I. W.

Goals

Mental illness can cause people to lose sight of what they wanted in life. I know from experience, I'm on my journey to figuring out exactly who I am and what I am going to pursue in my life. It's difficult to make progress when at every step forward, you are told how you need to do more, stop taking steps and leap. That's the truth though, and one that I am struggling to accept. Continuously moving on, whether it's going to a place that had been the location of a triggering event, talking to someone, or even ordering a tea or coffee for yourself. It all depends on you and where you want to go. I'm struggling with school, but I am working towards getting to a point in the future where I can attend college. I have to take the steps towards my goal, not a therapist, not my parents, not my friends; I have to take the steps for myself. That's a truth that I believe everyone should be reminded of, no matter how difficult it is to accept and pursue. So I encourage whoever reads this, create a goal for yourself, no matter how big or small and set yourself up for success.

- I. Wynters